Book of Ruth...

Okay I was reading my Bible...I was actually reading something other than the required reading...okay but any ways...i was reading the story of Ruth...okay I guess I never really knew the story...I guess I've heard about her name and all and knew she married Boaz but that was about it...so how exactly does Naomi figure in...I guess I thought she was the main one and ended up marring Boaz...but I guess not...so Naomi was the oldest one...so Boaz and Ruth and I guess Naomi were all related...and he still maried Ruth...Well I guess I didn't know there was the Bible character Naomi...Okay so what was the point in Naomi sending Ruth to uncover his feet and lie with him...they weren't even married yet...wouldn't that have been wrong...is that what she was trying to get at...so that would happen and he'd have to marry her...so what did it trigger that caused Boaz to go and talk to the other leaders...and I don't exactly get what he was trying to accomplish with talking to them...if he wanted to marry Ruth well then go ahead...he's an adult...okay so did he marry Ruth or Naomi...who had Obed...I thought it was Ruth but then it say Naomi took the kid and raised him...and the people said Naomi has a son...so who did Boaz marry...or did he get two wives for the 'price of one'...okay yeah...it was rather a cool and interesting story...this was actually the first time I had ever read that book of the Bible...

yep...i'm totally STUPID!!!

ok...yeah...i'm really stupid and dumb...okay you wonder why i think this right now...well after youth group last nite we stoped at IGA cause we were hungry...well we went in and got some food...okay well that in itself wasn't stupid...but i got chicken and noodles...which was good but i also got a strawberry desert thingy in the deli...well stupid me...i thought i looked yummy so i got it...but not thinking it had a whole bunch of wipped cream on it...in the middle of it....every where...okay well i just finished eating it a little while ago....and now i am really sick and feel really icky...i feel about like i do when i eat ice cream, dink milk, or anything else that is dairy or has milk in it....i honestly don't know why i ate it...i wasn't thinking it had milk or dairy in it but...it did....so know you can see why i think i am so stupid....some times i seriously wonder if i have a brain at times...but i'm convinced my one and only brain cell died from loneliness....and that explains a lot....okay that's all i have to say about me and my stupidity...or at least for now....well safe to say i'm not gonna eat that strawberry stuff for quite a long time....now if i stop throwing up and stop feeling sick and stop iching and everything else...i'll be doing great...or at least better....

will things ever...

will life and and things in life ever seem to make sence...and get less confusing...or will life always be confusing and messd up...and why does it seem like God doesn't care about you or things that are going on...will that ever get better too...okay not that the majority of you really care but oh well...sometimes...it jsut helps me to write things going on in my head...it keeps me from doing other things....so yeah...it just seems like sometimes life all crashing down...it's confusing...it messes me up...i don't know what to do or what to say...or even how to help other of my friends...it's wrong to be mad at God i'm sure...and i don't know but he'z probably mad at me for being like that...but i don't know...i'm tired of hating people, holding anger and bitterness and unforgiveness towards people...and i'm tring to work on that...but it all just seems impossible...okay i'll shut up for now...okay that's it...thanks for listening to me just talk well....actually type....

what is Karma......

okay...this isn't really a blog this time of somethings that's happened but one of my friends is into the belief of Karma...so what exactly is it...do any of you know...i sure don't...i want someone to talk to about with this but i don't know who to talk to i mean i don't want them to think i'm stupid....but that might be a know fact all ready...but is Karma...good...bad...is it jsut another segment of Christianity that I haven't heard about...okay that's all i've got right now...well tell me if you know anything...

the wedding at youth group tonite...

Well...here is another blog frome Elyse...This ones gonna be about youth group tonite...Well it was really good tonite...and we also had a wedding...only bad thing was the fact that i had to dress up...but in fact wasn't all that terrible becasue no one once made fun of me...okay but that's besides the point...Well as i said tonite service was a wedding...A guy and a girl (duh...but intodays society you never are quite sure) was gonna get married...So it started out like any other wedding...but a bit after pastor bob had gotten in to it another girl came up and took the soon to be husband's hand and stood by him...his soon to be wife was like who is she...he jsut casually brushed it off as no big deal...it was her he loved now...then it continued...and ever few seconds another girl would come up and take his hand...each time she would get more and more ticked...until finially it was her own sis that had messed around with her soon to be husband...well you can inagin how that went over...the bride ran away (hey that was a good movie). He went after her saying they mean nothing...but she wasn't buying that line...Well then we had snacks and a random little quizy thingy. It was pretty cool...actually learned some new things...Well then we got back together and Pastor Bob talked to us. In all it was really really good...I mean I have never really thought of it that way before...I mean I've heard it before but i don't know...some how it jsut made more sence tonite...but if i want my future husband to be pure and not have have like 50 other girlfriends...then I need to make sure I stay pure and not just randomly give myself to random boys...I mean I don't want my future husband (all though I am kinda doughtful that any guy would want to marry me) giving himself to other girls and I'm sure he wouldn't want me either...So yeah that's jsut something to think about...yeah Pastor Bob talked about a lot of other things as well tonite...and it was all good...okay yeah that's all...it's getting late...I had to take benedryal (that dumb drink and i didn't drink much at all) when I got home so I'm pretty much knocked out as i'm typing...so that's all for now...