will things ever...

will life and and things in life ever seem to make sence...and get less confusing...or will life always be confusing and messd up...and why does it seem like God doesn't care about you or things that are going on...will that ever get better too...okay not that the majority of you really care but oh well...sometimes...it jsut helps me to write things going on in my head...it keeps me from doing other things....so yeah...it just seems like sometimes life all crashing down...it's confusing...it messes me up...i don't know what to do or what to say...or even how to help other of my friends...it's wrong to be mad at God i'm sure...and i don't know but he'z probably mad at me for being like that...but i don't know...i'm tired of hating people, holding anger and bitterness and unforgiveness towards people...and i'm tring to work on that...but it all just seems impossible...okay i'll shut up for now...okay that's it...thanks for listening to me just talk well....actually type....