i'm not sure, really...

I'm not really 100% sure about it all...okay well pastor bob talked about death last nite...but anyways...how can i really be sure of what will happen...yeah i think i'm a christian...but i always wonder it...i jsut never really feel sre about it...i don't know why but i just don't...i know that probably sounds stupid...but i just really don't know...dying always really scares me...okay not when others die but for when i die...several people i know are like it's not bad it a great thing...but i jsut don't have that same peace or whatver...and if it's nt death that scares me it is the rapture...what happens if i do get left behind...i've been reading the book of Revilatesuns and well it's scary...what if i am left behind and not one of the ones that get to be taken in the air when Jesus comes back...i jsut don't don't...well yeah i guess i'm a christian but why do i not really really know for sure or not...