yeah i think i'm just gonna give up...

okay yeah i was looking at old blogs and i came across this one...i wrote it like four months ago and well yeah...i'm not doing so great with keeping my goals...lets see what they were and how i'm doing with them...
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Well since it is still the begining of the year I am gonna post my goals for this year. Mainly to just help me to remember what they are. Some of them I came up with and the others my best friend came up with. Well here they are...* sometime this year (and the sooner the better) be able to really forgive those who have really hurt me
~ well i guess i am about 25% of the way through on this one still really trying to completly though...but that jsut may never happen...idk...* actually stay on track with my Bible reading and do it DAILY
~ okay well i haven't done such a great job with this one...grrrrrrr...why can't i just stay on track doing my reading...i have done some reading but not consistently like i should be...so there's another one i messed up on... :( :( :( :(* to spend the first part of my mornings in "quiet time" with God
~ well i'm trying to but that is just about as consistent as my bible reading has been...so grrrrrrrrrrr...* try to listen better and not get in as much trouble
~ ok we won't even go there...i'm just a stupid person...* do good at school and not goof off
~ i guess this might be the only one i'm half way have actually done but even then that's kinda doughtful...* when i face problems know that God and my friends are there for me
~ i'm still trying to actually believe that one...that God really is there for me...and yeah...* to not cut myself this year
~ we won't even go here either...grrrrrrrrr......i can be so stupid.....* to learn to accept myself for who God made me to be
~ well i'm still trying to really really believe this......it jsut seems like i can't no matter how hard i try to convince myself...* not be so easily influenced by certain people and not care so much about what others think of me
~ okay far from this one too.....why can't i jsut ignore what others think and say about me....why can't i just ignore and not let it bother me.....* to be nice to those in the animal world
~ hey i think i'm sorta doign a pretty good job with this one...well sorta of....if the geesse at church could talk they my have something to say...but oh well.... ;)* oh and yeah one more to remember to turn off my cell phone during church services
~ well i have forgotten a few times...one time pastor bob told me he was gonna squish my cell phone... :(* Not to run in church
~ won't even go here......again i pretty sure i am the stupidest and dumbest person ever.....i just forget.....really i do.....but oh well........* not to sit on the back of the seats
~ well......yeah......trying to sit right but yeah......still told often times to sit right........* not to put my feet on the seats
~ oaky yeah still working on this one too.......like i said i'm jsut stupid.....* not to scream when something is touching or near me
~ haven't been successful on this one either....* not to scream at all
~ messed this one up........just like last nite at youth group......* to listen the FIRST time i'm told to do something
~ won't even go into this one much.........i do try to listen the first time.....although no one would believe me............but yeah........* not to put others down because they don't know something
~ i guess i might be a little better with this one but proably not.....but since i'm rather stupid probably not....* Lift others (and myself) up when deserved
~ i don't know how i've done with this one...you tell me....

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okay i guess i don't even know why i made this list...i haven't been succesful in any of it really..........oh well......maybe i will just give on on trying to work on all these things.....it'll never happen..........i'm jsut too stupid at times.......oh well......that's all i have to say.......so bye bye........